You might not believe me but I talk to Mr. Death
I think he knows that I need him.
Why?
Why?
Why?
Yoochun, that’s why.
Yoochun…
Without him I don’t want life.
I don’t.
I don’t.
After Yoochun showered, shaved, and changed he headed out.
Changmin followed him as Yoochun went to all of Junsu’s favorite places.
“Yoochun.”
Yoochun stopped. “What?”
“If we find Junsu..”
Yoochun in took a sharp breath.
“When we find him.” Changmin continued, “You will still have to hand him over to me. You know that right.”
“I know.”
“Then.. You’re still looking for him?”
“Of course.”
But wouldn’t you like it better if he died rather than see him in the arms of another?”
Yoochun looked at Changmin.
“No. It’ll kill me to see him in someone else’s arms. But I’d rather have him alive and happy. Yes happy, as long as he finds himself happy, then I’m willing to go through hell for it.”
Yoochun turned them and started looking for Junsu again.
Changmin watched Yoochun.
“His happiness…”
===
“Junsu! Junsu!” Yoochun’s voice was starting to become hoarse.
“Junsu! Junsu!”
The sun has gone to sleep. The moon has shown its face.
No Junsu to accompany it.
“Junsu… Su… where are you?”
Yoochun cries.
Yoochun falls on nearby bench.
“Where baby, where?”
Yoochun’s closes his eyes.
===
A tunnel… a tunnel…
I think I see you Mr. Death.
Can I come with you Mr. Death?
I if I can’t have the one I love, can I have you,
Mr. Death.
===
“Junsu-ah!” Changmin finds him.
Curled up. No response.
“Junsu!” Changmin picks him in his arms. Takes him home. The Kim’s home.
===
“We’ve found him.” click.
That’s it. That’s all.
But Yoochun falls to the ground in relief. He’s been found.
Now all he has to do it pray.
“Don’t let it be to late.
===
“Dr. Shim?” Mr. Kim looked at Changmin, the question on his face.
Changmin sat his head on his hands. ‘What would he say? How could he say it?
===
In a house.
A cold empty house.
Your invitation has been confirmed Mr. Death.
Do you know Changmin, Mr. Death?
He’s taken some of your guests away.
But he wont take me, Mr. Death.
Only my belove has that privilege.
But Changmin did say I’m closer to you day by day.
……………
I already knew that Mr. Death.
Don’t worry Mr. Death.
I wont let him.
I wont let him.
===
“He wont let me treat him.!”
“Does it matter if he does?”
“Mr. Kim if Junsu does not give it his all then no matter how much treatment I give him; it wont do a difference.”
Mr. Kim punched the wall. “I let my wife die because I could do nothing about it, but I wont let my only son leave this world! I wont!”
Changmin bowed and left Mr. Kim, he needed time alone.
In Changmin’s own private room he took out his phone.
===
Yoochun gently opened the door to Junsu’s room. It had not been easy to sneak into the Kim mansion.
But he’d done it in the end.
He went to the bed where Junsu laid asleep, an IV machine beside him.
His love looked tired. Worn out but beautiful.
Always beautiful.
Yoochun’s heart broke to know that if his Su didn’t let Changmin treat him then Junsu would perish.
Yoochun took a hold of Junsu’s hand and held it to his lips, kissing it lightly.
“Oh, Su. Why do you not let them treat you? Why are you giving up so easily? Did my words truly affect you? Do I really mean so much to you?”
Because you know Su, I still love you…
===
I hear his voice.
But how?
It gets stronger… clear.
‘Do I really mean so much to you?’
He means the life to me Mr. Death, no pun intended.
‘Because you know Su, I still love you..’
My heart stops. Did I hear right? Did I?
I love you, Su
‘I have never loved you’
‘Because you know Su, I still love you.’
Like a flower in the field.
He loves me.
He loves me not
He loves me.
He loves me not?
Please let it be he loves me….
===
As Yoochun caressed the sleeping Su his spilled his soul out.
How Mr. Kim had told him about Junsu’s health.
How Yoochun had gone crazy.
The pain of the decision.
The pain of going through the decision.
And when Junsu ran out.
The hole in his heart.
Yoochun’s tears started to fall out.
Through the blurriness he did not see.
Tears also running down Junsu’s face.
===
Did you hear all that Mr. Deat?
Did you hear?
He loves me. He truly does. All this pain..
He truly loves me. He did it because he cared.
‘Junsu you need to wake up, babe’
Wake up? Should I wake up Mr. Death?
‘Please. You need to beat this illness. Show it who’s boss.’
He’s asking, ‘please’.
‘If you give up Junsu, if you die, I’ll die with you!’
What?! No! No! he can’t do that! I’m sorry,
Mr. Death. But I won’t…
I can’t let you have him.
He is my beloved.
‘I’m not kidding Su. Even if I have to run a bullet through my head, I will.
This world is nothing without you, Su.’
No! Yoochun! I wont let you die!
Bye Mr. Death.
Goodbye.
Understand.
Please understand.
I can’t let my Yoochun die.
I wont let my Yoochun do that to himself.
I’m sorry Mr. Death, you’ll have to wait for me.
Bye bye Mr. Death.
===
Junsu’s eyes snapped open. “Yoochun-ah!”
Yoochun raised his face from Junsu’s hand.
His streaked face shocked to see Su awake.
“Junsu?”
“Chunnie!” Junsu reached for Yoochun, his arms open wide. Yoochun embraced him holding him tightly.
“Su. Oh gosh. Su.” he started to kiss Junsu’s hair and desperate, happy kisses trailed down Junsu’s forehead, eyes, nose, all the way to his mouth.
Junsu eagerly kissed Yoochun. They stayed lip locked for a few minutes and when they managed to pull apart they were breathless.
“Chunnie-ah.” Junsu panted.
They hugged again.
“I’m sorry Su. I’m sorry. I love you, I really do. I…”
“Its okay. Its okay.” Su said hugging his beloved. “I understand.. But Yoochun..”
“Yes?”
“You can’t leave me. I forbid you to leave me.”
“I won’t. As long as you want I won’t. But Su…”
“Yes?”
“You have to fight this sickness. You have to fight hard to beat it.”
“I will, I promise.”
Their lips searched for each other and soon Yoochun engulfed Junsu’s sweet lips once more.
===
Changmin closed the door leaving the couple alone.
He walked to Mr. Kim’s office and entered.
“Mr. Kim, I believe Junsu will make it.”
Mr. Kim looked at Changmin in surprise. “How?”
Changmin slightly smiled. “He has a reason to live again…”
“A reason?”
“Mmm… and I’d be cruel to take that away from him… so Mr. Kim I’ll still treat your son. And I won’t take him away from his husband.”
Changmin blinked his eyes repeatedly, hoping he would not cry.
‘For his happiness.’ he reminded himself.
‘For his happiness.’
=====
End
Previous Reader Comments
Eprinces -- 5 November 2008 at 11:58 p.m.
You just killed me with this sweet, sad, lovely, beautiful, exciting, bittersweet, and short story! it would be even more if it had been longer story...oh my, i just love yoosuuuuuuuuuuuu.
I'm glade I read it, keep it up
Micah -- 22 October 2008 at 11:44 p.m.
i really like the way you write. about the sleeping sun and all that wonderful diction. you're so good with words! i'm jealous...lol
the story is awesome. all the characters deserve to be pitied, but non hated because they all had a reason to do what they did. there basically isn't a villian in this story...except for that horrible disease. and Mr. Death isn't an anatagonist because he did not take Su away. he allowed Su to make his own choice whether he wanted to live or not!
the ending with changmin is very touching. i realy felt for him and i love him so much for giving yoosu their happily ever after. and of course, yoosu love forever!
hope you keep spreading the yoosu love!
Kim Eunmi -- 6 October 2008 at 11:08 a.m.
this is so sweet.
I cried in the end. T^T
Junsu woke up for him..
lovely story!
Hevi -- 27 September 2008 at 5:17 a.m.
omg, such a beautiful fic T_________T hopping to hear more from you~
farzunsu -- 23 September 2008 at 4:54 a.m.
sorry for the late comment.......
i'm crying when i read this u know !!!
ahahah !!!
such a touching shot love story.....
good job !!!
bye !!!
love you !!!
/farzunsu2
/farzunsu3
/farzunsushot
Ju Young >.< -- 19 September 2008 at 2:23 p.m. Damn... I love Yoosu!! although I feel bad for Changmin... (this is the second fic I read with Yoosu that had Changmin has a antagonist... remind me to write a story where he's one of the protagonist...) Lovely story dear <3> -- 18 September 2008 at 2:14 p.m.
Yoosu!!! Love it!! Love them sooooooo much!! anyway, good luck in writing yr first chapter.. hwaiting!
p/s can't wait to read it... the title was kinda creepy.. *o.0*
farzunsu -- 18 September 2008 at 10:38 a.m.
hey !!!
hhhhmmmm.........
so mystery...
i wonder what will it be in this story...
so update fast okaiz??!!1
bye!!!
/farzunsu2
/farzunsu3
JJ'26 -- 17 September 2008 at 10:12 p.m.
It's okay so far...so mysterious and angsty..so update! Update!
.:Check out my yunjae yoosu oneshots too:.
=> /PriNceSs
VanillaIcex3 -- 17 September 2008 at 9:41 p.m.
HII :).
awesomeness ^_^, update soon!
aizawa -- 17 September 2008 at 9:34 p.m.
hahaha first one to comment.
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good good good.
hurry and post again.
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